whatmeanstheworldtoyou

Sick. …Again…

Karma is weakening my immune..

I see today the toll. I see right now the weakness of every soul. I see endless imaginations combined as a whole I see a reflection as you see and it reveals to me my being of inadequacy. I see the willingness of the heart in me… if ‘I’ mean so much to me…. I should believe in a common equality and feel every persons individual worth as a part of me….

Smoking in a heated room with my head out the window yay high, The bitterness chill seeps with in each breath of every toke. My head gets cold now, mind floating, waiting wanting to explode. Most call the result condition of  ‘the common cold’ I rename it Pain. DIsgust. and Surrender!

Sarcastically amused by my reflection I preached and dwell-ed on thoughts so bright for a lonnng time. I insisted on the patiently waiting, and the adaptation of conjuring my own beliefs on a way the life of a civilization should be happy to live by. Now I’m sick. Literally and Mentally. For which came first the chicken or the egg, will stay unresolved. But the practice of the preaching was completely out of mind, a person I felt I needed to be and wanted so badly to portray and seek to confide in never even really existed……

My head is throbbing, throat rough and burning, I have sharp pains in my ears and my nose is running away.

I have to spit often green mucus rockets.

Disgusting..

I’m disgusted..

From broke, to depressed, to hope, to want, to find, flipped to my worst fears of deceit and ignorance.